Imbento

window shopping is the art of choosing the appropriate window that would match the entire exterior and interior of your household…. man i’m getting tired of this….

i found a new feature in friendster… the who’s viewed me for the past month… and it was interesting…… interesting coz half of the ones that viewed me were guys…. hahaha…. i knew there was something in me that could change men into freakin ladies…

this who’s viewed me thing made me feel like i was something on sale…. not in a bad way though… but in a good way… nothing to boost the ego… but from there i found out that there is just this past thing that keeps haunting me… and it doesn’t scare me… but it does get me confused…..

dati dati para akong tanga na nagpupumilit pero ngaun………… all of the clues plus this one just makes the jacket issue a lot more prominent… anyways… i don’t know… i don’t really wanna keep on thinking about that bull… i guess i just got overwhelmed? or another word that i can’t quite recall….

i guess God or faith for that matter has a way of stirring things up when you least expect it….funny part is, my foundation does get shattered each time that i remember about the past events.. it is just nuts…. but then, we can’t do nothing about it… all we could do is endure and hopefully it works out in a good way in the end…

sigh….

right now, the only thing in my mind is my family…. i miss my parents and my little brother.. although i think he’s bigger than i am now…. haven’t seen them for over a year… i have not celebrated my birthday with my entire family for the past few years since i got back here in the Philippines…. i never actually gave it much thought until this afternoon when someone asked me when was your happiest birthday?

even just typing those words puts tears in my eyes………

the last time i could remember that i had a birthday where in my entire family was there was way back when i was in elementary…. exagerated i know… that’s coz my sis left for the phils for college after high school, which was the exact time that i was supposed to enter high school….

back then i didn’t really care…. but now, man…. i realize how much time i’ve spent with my family that i took in vain… how much time i took for granted….. i miss my parents and my brother a lot…. and every bit of emotion is just overwhelming me right now…. and its diriving me nuts…. i need to take a break…. a break wherein i get to spend time with my family, even for a couple of weeks without compromising what everyone of us has worked hard for….

for the first time in my life, i could actually say that i deeply miss someone so much……

i miss my family……

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