blah, blah, blah
life’s always been a mystery to me…
a lot of things happen for so many reasons which we cant really explain….
heck i don’t even know how i’m still alive in medicine!
there are so many things in one’s life that happens so fast that sometimes we fail to even notice that it in fact had happened… but then when you look back at things you start to realize that you’ve missed quite some stuff… (am i making sense here, anyways…)
looking back, i know that i don’t have anything to regret… i’ve done everything and everything which to my own perception is the right thing to do… however, there are still a couple of things that just keeps me going crazy up until now….
there are some things that i can’t get out of my head… somethings that needs closure… those are the things that could drive a man to a corner and just plain ol stare into space without even feeling time pass by…. it is crazy…. i’m crazy…
ever since that event, i haven’t felt the same… feels like i’ve gone stagnant… so stagnant that i can’t move ahead… a part of me wants to go back to how things were but a part of me says that its in the past and that theres no changing it no more…
but then what if i could change things? (i’m not talking about time travel)…. would i be happier? or would it just be a fulfilment of an obsession?
i don’t know how i feel right now…. i have absolutely no idea…… i thought i’ve gone over this time and again but seems like its not enough…… argh… bullshit…. i’ll just sleep hope that this craps over and forgotten when i wake up….
