Back to Earth
for the past few weeks i felt as though i as on top of everything. kind of like the feeling that Chris Gardner had when he was able to sell all his bone scanners just a month before completing his internship at some stock broking company.. he felt like all his financial problems are gone and that the rest of his 4 weeks would be a walk in the park…
in my case, i thought that everything that i had put in my head was all good. good in a sense that i thought i had enough knowledge to get through any test (like the first part of the boards) and pass ‘em… that is until i went to UP for a brainwave quiz bee…
yea the "quiz bee" part sounds nerdy.. i didn’t want to be a part of it either… but i was there… in the end, my team ended up with the lowest score… a negative one to that! damn… that was a big blow to me psychologically and to think that my all time comparator was there (his team won i think…)..
Damn it… i shouldn’t have been in that thing… i shoud’ve just walked out and let some other person do the job… i made a mess… the only thing good about what had happened was that i did manage to "get back" at the school in some way… but deep inside, i was hurt… it meant one thing - i’m not good enough — yet! and that i have to start getting my old habbit back together if i was to stay in the game…
there’s only a few exams left… and the only way to keep up is if i study harder… i won’t sleep if i have to… no more sleeping early for me…
