doing what’s right and doing what you desire
its ben a while since i made use of the blog to pour in my emotions…
no no…. i’m not breaking down this time… i’m just…. "thinking"
all my life i’ve been doing what i want… there has never been one person that has forced me to do something that i do not want to do since the day i realized that i had a brain that functioned…
i do what i want to do so long as it is righteous…
by righteous, i mean i’m not breaking any rules, regulations, law or whatever
by righteous, i mean i’m doing things with my own free will to the best knowledge that it conforms with the norms of society (though i disagree with society most of the time)
somehow, for the past few days, i have to admit that i have been in a delema about doing what i want to do… not because someone told me not to… but because i just feel that… i can’t
such occurrences make me feel sick to my stomach… so sick that each time i’m alone, the whole thing just eats me up… makes me wanna puke with hopes that by doing so, i’d feel better…
but it’s more than just a feeling, it’s an innate desire within the substance of the brain… a craving… a desire that needs to be fulfilled
limits do come along with the freedom to choose… what a life… God help us all
